hi people, i'm back blogging. i have been rather moody these few days, not feeling good and stuff. i don't exactly know whats running through my head but i just know that i'm not feeling good. ok, now it sounds nonsensical =) doesn't it? life hasn't been good since 26 january 2007. for those that knew why, good for u, for those that didn't i'm sorry i didn't tell u? well, nothing much, just trivial matters but i take it too seriously. at a certain point in time, i thought i had let everything go, but in actual fact, i didn't. some people might think that i think too much. so i guess i was so wrong all along. to think that i'm STRONG. and i'm never strong enough. pictures deleted, chat logs deleted, the only thing tts left is that msn account.

Last night, i had a sweet nightmare as some might call it. because i dreamt of you know who, but i dreamt that we were in this 'wave-pool' like setting, and i'm like drowning. i remembered vividly, how the waters was gushing towards me and wash me away, but he was somewhere near me. its quite a nonsensical dream, but it felt real that i thought i was really going to die in my sleep. ok enough of this rubbish.

总在以为已经消失的，一丝一毫也没有，其实他一直都在。只是我不想去触碰它