i'm not consoling anyone

recently, things haven't been going well. firstly, i've not received any acceptance letter. not even 1 rejection letter. so i hve totally no idea was gg on with the applications. i just hate the feeling of suspense. knowing that my friends had gotten their letter was so not encouraging at all. and for samantha, she's kinda woried that she might not even get a course of her choice. she did not have any calls for interviews or any letter of acceptance. was talking abt it today on the way to northpoint for lunch. and then she said ' aiya, don't console me la, no used one' and then i replied. 'i'm not consoling you, i'm just stating facts. u forgot that i do not console ppl' LOL. i think she was kinda like shocked, or perhaps pissed with me. maybe she wanted me to console her further. but u noe what, nothing's gonna change the situation. if u decided that things are gg to be bad, nothing i say would go into ur brains right? =) hmm.. ohh, the fact i told her was ' 90% of the things you worry about won't come true.'

ohh well, ohh well.. all i can do now is wait. worse come to worse, call up and ask them. tt settles all~

i really don't wanna bother about other people's affairs now haha. just wanna be happy and free!! coz i don't wanna spoil my own mood. i find that i'm changing. moving away from who i used to be. that quiet gurl at that corner, sometimes, an insignificant person hanging around. now i seem to be really extrovert. maybe i'm acting? i have no idea. sometimes i find it a chore to even SMILE and GREET them while sitting at the recept. it's like smiling to ppl on the streets that you don't even know. if someone smile to u on the streets, you would probably think that their mad. am i right? hai. anw, i shall look on the bright side. i only working till this fri or next fri.

hmmm... seem like my eyes are not feeling well. must be the dusty files.. they have mould on them~ if it is still puffy tmr think i won't report for work la.