Its 2 january 2008 2158hrs.

yet it's me again, blogging.

suddenly find myself rather lonely. friends are getting busier, they seem to busy to have time for me. sometimes, it's hard to find ppl whom u can talk to. i understand, friends come and go. maybe i was too dependent of them, and i lost myself in the process. i realised, i cant exactly survive alone. i used to be able to. but now, i find myself all alone.

seriously, what are friends? ppl that are merely passerbys in ur life. and the difference btw acquaintances and friends lies in something called time. friends stop by in ur life longer than acquaintances. so why am i so dependent on them? i have no idea why.

i need to be enlightened. seems like i'm becoming pessimistic again. returning to that georgina 3 years ago. and maybe that's just the real me. i thought i was being childish then. but now, i realised i'm hurting. i can no longer suppress it. whether is it love, family, friends or maybe just Life. i feel really disappointed.

i'm tired of telling myself tt i've to stay strong, i've to learn to pick myself up, i've to do well, i've to study, i've to go for lessons, i've to be there for so and so, i've to............ too many to state. but i'm tired. i am.

and my ranting goes on and on.